So I had some time yesterday to talk to my Higher Self, who lives with me full time now, she wanted to tell you a few things:

The outside world is NOISY right now, can you hear yourself? 

Be brave! Step away from the noise, from the distractions, from anything that isn't in full alignment with your Divine Self and your sacred MISSION. Be kind to yourself and create your life in a way that makes space for all of you to come in, aka full multidimensional livin'. If you keep going with a life that compromises you and has too much interference, blocking you from your truth, then your spirit can’t fully land and you won’t know which direction to go. 

Face your fears HEAD ON. Otherwise they will keep coming at you from your blind spot.

Ultimately, these places where you are compromising your life in fear will cause you GREAT PAIN. Whatever you bring to your life that is not in full alignment with your Divine Self, but a compromise,is a replay of childhood dramas so you can work out karma. EVERY TIME. And you will feel stuck, guilty and like the victim if you don't FULLY embrace your path, your lessons and your liberation.

You cannot avoid your big fears. That is not how life is designed. Your big fears are your tickets to liberation. You came here to face them or be stuck in underachieving, blame, compromise and guilt. 

Your willingness to be in your God-Human Self is what makes these fears and lessons worthwhile, and ultimately is what allows you to BREAK THROUGH that invisible barrier you’ve become so comfortable with. You know the one. It makes you choose the almost right partner, the almost right job, the almost right friends, etc. You settle for almost enough. But settling is not why you’re here.  

You came here to liberate through limitation and be a CREATOR.

Deep in your subconscious you know you were designed to be free.

The younger ones have a much easier time with this and are naturally embodying their Divine Self. They couldn't care less about thousands of years of false patriarchal rule and oppression, it doesn't live in their cells the same way. But if you are older, you gotta werk it to find the confidence in your full power. You have to know that by doing that you are breaking every rule you were ever taught, consciously or unconsciously for GENERATIONS.


I was loving this divine blast and I thought...

There came a point where I surrendered, when I fired myself and hired God. "It’s all you now Higher Selfie!" And when that happened, uncomfortable as it was/is, she took over. 

I was attached to my karmic story. Very Attached. And when I truly gave up the reigns to her, to my greater longing and to my true mission, divine orchestration took over and RUINED MY LIFE.Thats right, ruined! She dissolved all the bullshit to bring my life up to speed. My hopes, dreams and my precious STORY went down the universal drain. It was all very inconvenient. But I was willing, in fact I had secretly conjured the whole thing.

You know what they say, from the ashes the phoenix rises. This time she rose in all dimensions and landed. My life rearranged itself so fast it took me a little while to adjust. But no story is better than being at one with your Divine Self. NONE.

Why? Because everything becomes crystal clear. Because life becomes so ecstatic you can't remember your story anymore. You are at one with God and God is in ecstasy all the time. Anything is possible from there.

I go to bed with the call of the wild laughing in my soul, I wake up each day with cosmos dancing in my mind, I trust in the curious Divine ALL that has allowed me the perfect position in this cosmic orchestra. Everything that I desired became available and yet I am not attached to anything that was running my life before.

And I say to my clients, who are squirming in their fear story and don’t know it, but are just on the precipice of this COSMIC LEAP….

Are you willing to face you fears and let go of your story for your LIBERATION?

Are you willing to de-colonize your mind, body and spirt for your FREEDOM?

Are you ready to receive the fullness of your wise, Divine Self, to run the show of your life?

Are you ready to become part of the ecstatic symphony of GOD?

The ETERNAL WILDNESS flows through their eyes, their body radiates in remembering…

HELL YES!

Because when you stop resisting your own spirit and fully receive your multidimensional, full DIVINE Self, that is actually where your life begins.  

That’s where your gifts can shine. 
That’s where the money is. 
That’s where all the good men are. 
That’s where all the good women are. 
That’s where your community is. 
That’s where your HOME is. 
That’s where your long held visions easily come to LIFE.
ETC.

When you fully claim yourself you get claimed by all that you desire. Period. You are Creator.

The Bring Your Vision to Life program is all about htis. It's a multidimensional, miracle generating blast off for your best earthly life.

If you are seriously ready to make your cosmic leap, email me to set up a free 45 min discovery session with me. 

Let's do this.

Love,
CC

Picture it. You’ve been working hard visioning, imagining, summoning the magic of the universe! Your whole soul is on fire as you take action at the right moment, surrender to the momentum and YES, you are rewarded with your dream coming true.  You can’t believe it, it is all working out as you imagined. Of course, nothing is ever perfect, there are holes, but you’re gonna ride this train as far as you can. And then, like clockwork, the karmic hand strikes down and you start to face some miserable blows as the train comes to a screeching halt.

The expansion that lit up your soul quickly turns into stomach churning contraction and bitterly, you are forced to slow down and examine where the missing pieces might be on this ever-expanding, evolutionary journey. This is a critical time because it begs the deepest inquiry into the self and requires the most raw humility. This part is not pleasant, definitely unwanted and likely abounding with shame because you’ve probably splattered your expansion out into the world as your new permanent reality.

You can think of the contraction as your personal mercury in retrograde. It’s time to go through and get all parts of your being in alignment  before you can truly integrate your expansion and move forward. Here are some helpful steps to get you back into the magic sooner rather than later.


1. EMBRACE YOUR INNER OPPOSITE:

With every gift that you naturally possess and have developed, you have an opposite gift that needs attention. OK maybe it’s more like a chore, because it doesn't come so naturally or bring as much pleasure, but it’s extremely important.

If you have a natural talent of intuition, visioning and creativity, then the place you need to develop is in the nitty gritty details of linear life.

If you have a personality of logic, reason and getting things done on time, then your balancing act is learning how to dream, intuit and be in the unknown.

The generous person must find boundaries, or she will get taken advantage of.

The stingy will need to soften boundaries and give, or he will be lonely and angry.

While this isn't good news for many people who are happy just how they are, this is usually what the contraction is about.  Your inner opposite needs some attention or there is no foundation to truly grow and you will find yourself back where you started. This doesn’t mean doing everything yourself, but it does mean strengthening the places you’ve been avoiding.


2. EMBRACE YOUR INNER CHILD:


Did you know that almost your entire brain is wired to prevent you from change? That’s right, evolution has created a failsafe to keep you from harm. Most often, this system was created by past traumatic events, or perhaps just programming that was functional growing up, but not suited for growth as an adult. You’ve got well hidden blind spots, and your inner child might be running the show in your subconscious. Time to find her and hold her because she may be very very scared of getting hurt again. All this expansion could be stressful for mini-you, and he may be sabotaging you only because he needs attention, rest, love and the security of your consistent comfort. Your feelings will lead the way to him or her.

Learning the difference between your healthy, capable adult, and your wounded, inner child will make a big difference in your ability to move forward.

The healthy adult knows its limits, boundaries and abilities. The child is unconsciously trying to get unmet emotional needs from childhood and not capable of making the right decisions for adult life.

Some signals that your wounded inner child is running the show: overwhelm, blame, loss of confidence, egoistic behavior, sabotage, making excuses, etc.  Working with a skilled healer, counselor or coach is essential at this stage.


3. EMBRACE A BIGGER SUPPORT SYSTEM

You’ve grown, the game has changed. You definitely need more support. Often times, people don't realize that growing your support network is fundamental to expansion. But you absolutely will need more support than you think, professionally and personally. You must carefully consider where you will spend your time, and who is really up to the task of meeting you in this vulnerable, yet critical place.

Friends that want to keep you in the old place are not up to the task. Friends that cant be with your vulnerability are not up to the task. Friends that are ahead or on track with you, and can be compassionate yet hold your highest vision, are up to the task. You may convince yourself you cant do it over and over again. Having people believe in you at this point cannot be overstated.

I once asked my students how much support they needed. They said a private session once a week, some yoga, etc. Then I asked them to double it. So they added more sessions and yoga.  Then I asked them to triple it. At that point, the support went exponential.  They felt like there was nothing they couldn't do. They were no longer getting a few needs met per week but the world itself became supportive in all ways to their particular, soul based contribution. It was a real eye opener: a threshold is crossed into a whole new level of abundance when you feel completely supported.


4. EMBRACE YOUR BRAIN AS A MACHINE

Training your brain for your success is the final step during the contraction. This takes consistency. While it may feel impossible to do when you are down and out, or grieving an unexpected loss, it is the MOST important time to do it so your brain doesn't revert back to its original pattern. You can use mantra, affirmations, NLP, EFT, martial arts, whatever helps your brain stay on track while your deeper emotions are rising. Enlist your support team to remind you of this. Have consistent support set up so your brain knows it can count on this routine. Don't get attached to the emotions or stories as they rise, just let them flow through and then return to the reprogramming for the new story.  Keep your vision clear.

​In the face of unexpected trials after your victorious expansion, these 4 main steps will have you integrating and expanding again in no time so you don't have to sabotage your dreams. This time you will be more prepared. And the next time after that. Life is built to surprise you, and as you master one area of life, you are given new tasks. Rising to your next level involves trial and error, success and failure, knowing and not knowing, and the ability to be uncomfortable more often than not. Keep going, your vision is worth it.

After my first heartbreak when I was 21, I didn’t recover for almost 8 years. I knew something was up but I had no idea how to change things. I was frozen inside and I kept myself safe in a dating pattern where I knew I wouldn’t get too hurt, except that I chose people who would inevitably leave, or that I would inevitably leave. Each time, re-wounding myself.  Does this sound familiar?

After we get hurt, whether from a breakup, or any shock/loss of some kind, we often will shut parts of ourselves down. We can shut down the vulnerable part, the strong parts, the sexual parts, the loving parts, the creative parts, etc. You get the idea.

It is here where we stay frozen, unable to accept what happened, then attracting the same pattern over and over again, trying to resolve it, trying to find and love our lost parts of ourselves.  Again, this can happen after any kind of major shock/loss/betrayal.


This could manifest as:

• Chronic dream squashing
• Unfinished projects
• Telling yourself that what you want is not really that important anyway
• Manifesting continual crisis that halts your progress
• Discouraged from watching other people be more successful with less talent and skill than you
• Getting overwhelmed by too many ideas
• Heading right back into that unfulfilling, train wreck of a relationship
• Feeling chronic pain or deadening in your heart that kills your motivation
• Addictions to social media, netflix, taking care of others etc

I shut down my powerful spiritual side in relationship. Because I blamed these parts of myself for past hurts. Now, can you imagine someone as uber spiritual as me trying to minimize that part of me in relationship? That’s a kamikaze mission. A spirit this strong will rebel. And it is SHE who does every time I set that pattern up for myself, in hopes that maybe this time, I’ll stay for good.

Well, this last time, I decided to stay for good. When my ex told me, after a year, that he wasn’t so sure about this healing thing I was doing…..I had a wake up call. I was devastated at the realization that my full self could not be present in it,  but I knew it was because I had been minimizing its importance, again.

The pain overwhelmed me. But I took that pain and I channeled it into my deepest, long held spiritual and creative dreams. I took all that intolerable but potent energy, cried all the way to New York and got a cabin in the woods in the creative, spiritual mecca of Woodstock, NY, where I had wanted to live for 20 years. Then I got to the business of fully incarnating into my badass multi-dimensional self. I finally let my Higher Selfie land inside my body for good. No apologies. No hiding. No holding back. No more compromising this essential part of me for love. I’ve been creating, painting, writing, wailing, singing, owning myself and putting myself out there like never before. Higher Selfie is home for good, she is clear on just about everything, and she is just getting started.


This is your most important point of transformation. When you are willing and able to feel those emotions fully in a healing container, they are the cry to all the lost parts of yourself! YOU come fully back in and with all that energy you have no choice but channel them into something creative, you are participating in the most powerful alchemical process that available. You are saying to the All That Is that you are READY. Ready to face life and all that it comes with, because your full self is brave and willing to be put to use, willing to accept the energy that spirit wants to give you. You are saying YES to your dreams you are saying YES to your mission, you are saying YES to your whole self.
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The grieving process does not happen overnight of course. There are many check points where the pain feels so overwhelming that you just want to stop it all. And that is why it is EXTREMELY important that you get the love and support that you need, so that these sacred parts of yourself don't go into hiding and repeat the patterns, hardening your precious heart. You will be very, very tempted to do that, and being held in support will catch you and hold you in those moments.

This work is all the more crucial if your heart has hardened up and the patterns have set in. NOW is still the time to unwind them. It’s never too late.

I hope you will join us in this wild, wonderful, passionate, loving and restorative journey to Turn Your Broken Heart into Art. It’s my life’s work. It’s my most vulnerable, humble and hard earned creation that Higher Selfie, my spirit team and I want to share with you. If this course is over after you've clicked, shoot me an email to learn how to work with me privately.

With LOVE,
CC

I always have these romantic ideals about the fall. I love the wind, the changing of leaves, the excitement of the energy and my birthday, of course. But it can be spooky! As the veil drops, so does the illusion, and when the illusion drops, we are naked in our core. For each expansion we have with our divine selves, we must integrate into the physical, unlocking the hidden, darker places for integration.

Much of what we see and experience in our vision of manifestation has to go through an evolutionary process down the chakras into Earth. Where might you be lingering in illusion? Where do your dreams get stuck? Do you derive too much nourishment from your dreams and pay too little attention to the action needed to manifest them?

This is the time to dive deep into the shadow and allow its release to reveal the deeper unspoken needs. When you enter into this territory, time slows down, you are forced to feel and make necessary changes so you can once again remember your true self. This moves the stuck dreams out of the illusion, out of dreamtime and into realtime.

I have written an article to help you get clear on whether or not you are in illusion, and how to get out of it and get real!

Also, keep reading. A new teleclass, The Healing Chamber, is upon us for November. We also have a Creation Activation Tele-channeling coming up on Sacred Sexuality.

Wishing you unconditional love and clear vision during these days of the thin veil!

From the Deep Mystery,
CC

Wow, have I neglected the blog for so long? My apologies! It looks like somehow in the midst of all the newsletters and courses, I did not keep up with the blog. I have updated the article section, so feel free to peruse to see what happened in Guatemala for the solstice, as well as the deep love affair I began with Money.  

Anyway, here we are in May. This month I wrote about the ups and downs of being in the perpetual transition that is "the Shift."

As usual the year is flying by. We are almost at the end of the MoneyLuv course, the most transformational class to date. I realized throughout the class, as the students unearthed wounds and learned how to relate to money in a healthy way, that I had never experienced a time in my life where we talked about money in such a sacred manner. Money is always left outside of that conversation. In this class, we were able to include money in that sacred prayer. We were able to go deep into ourselves, and still stay connected to our abundance. We talked about the ups and downs of our passions, work and money without the veil of secrecy this culture is so used to, and with profound compassion. I found this experience itself to be so valuable, as a benevolent and loving wave of abundance began to flow through the students.

I encourage you to open up this conversation, to allow money to be in the spaces that are most sacred in your heart. In this way, together, we can shift its vibration and come into alignment as a culture. This, I believe is instrumental in our process as human beings at this time.

Blessed Beltane! There are lots of events coming up at Treadway Esoteric. Many of them in New York, and one via teleclass. It’s an exciting, creative time with shows, classes and meditations. 

From the Deep Mystery,

CC

IT'S SHOWTIME.

It’s an exciting time here on Earth. For those of us who have been tirelessly growing and healing into our multidimensional selves, this solstice feels like our grand event. The process of stepping into our light bodies and embodying our higher selves is a gradual one, but rest assured on this date, when so many around the world gather in ceremony to celebrate the ending of one cycle and beginning of another, the potential for love, peace and harmony is exponential. Just the thought of so many hearts unified for the celebration of a better world is enough to change things, regardless of the epic astrological alignments and prophecies. When the human heart gathers in this way, the opportunity for light beings to respond to our call of love is magnified beyond our understanding. Just think about it….

This solstice, I am journeying to Guatemala once again to receive the energy activation at Tikal, Guatemala. I will be traveling with a band of healers, mystics, elders, devotees and artists. Five years ago I also was in Guatemala with Drunvalo Melchizedek and Don Alejandro Oxlaj, then Chief Elder of the Guatemala Maya. That trip was perhaps the most sacred of my life, and so I am very much looking forward to this one.

Every time I step on Guatemalan soil I am transported deep into my soul. Our group aim is to simply open to the energies in prayer. That we may be pure channels for what is coming through, that we may be the bridge between heaven and earth, and that these energies overlight and guide us through our work in New York and around the world. Many of us have foreseen legions of angels penetrating the veil, welcoming our world to the divine energies we have been working so hard to bring into our lives.

I’ve watched so many get torn to shreds this year. With the ‘evolve or perish’ energies of 2012, anyone who wanted to evolve did. Anyone who didn’t want to evolve did. Shadow pieces have been magnified and intensified so that transformation could happen quickly and with little mercy. There is a new human being birthing, this human being knows how to let go and ride with change as pure divine expression.

This last year, in the telecourses, we sat in “the energies” a lot. They became the foundational element of the curriculum, and I trust deeply in their benevolent power. I watched students birth dreams into life as these energies unlocked their subconscious soul desires and purpose. It was an extraordinary year of direct teaching from spirit, surrender into the unknown and simply watching as the work unfolded in front of us. I realized I was not at all in charge, and then it really got fun.

I am so excited about next year I can’t even stand it. To me, it is truly the year the New Human Being comes to life, and that will be the theme for the curriculum at Treadway Esoteric. We get to start really building, because we are at the beginning now, not the end. Yay!

I am honored to be on this adventure with all of you. Please join us in a course if you haven’t yet, or come on a Creation Activation call to get a taste. I also have FINALLY put together several downloadable e-educational products. These are a great way to being to experience what we do here.

I have also been revising the Channeling Certification Program. Stay tuned for more information on that!

Wishing you a beautiful solstice however you choose to celebrate.


From the Deep Mystery,
CC Treadway