Picture it. You’ve been working hard visioning, imagining, summoning the magic of the universe! Your whole soul is on fire as you take action at the right moment, surrender to the momentum and YES, you are rewarded with your dream coming true. You can’t believe it, it is all working out as you imagined. Of course, nothing is ever perfect, there are holes, but you’re gonna ride this train as far as you can. And then, like clockwork, the karmic hand strikes down and you start to face some miserable blows as the train comes to a screeching halt.
The expansion that lit up your soul quickly turns into stomach churning contraction and bitterly, you are forced to slow down and examine where the missing pieces might be on this ever-expanding, evolutionary journey. This is a critical time because it begs the deepest inquiry into the self and requires the most raw humility. This part is not pleasant, definitely unwanted and likely abounding with shame because you’ve probably splattered your expansion out into the world as your new permanent reality.
You can think of the contraction as your personal mercury in retrograde. It’s time to go through and get all parts of your being in alignment before you can truly integrate your expansion and move forward. Here are some helpful steps to get you back into the magic sooner rather than later.
1. EMBRACE YOUR INNER OPPOSITE:
With every gift that you naturally possess and have developed, you have an opposite gift that needs attention. OK maybe it’s more like a chore, because it doesn't come so naturally or bring as much pleasure, but it’s extremely important.
If you have a natural talent of intuition, visioning and creativity, then the place you need to develop is in the nitty gritty details of linear life.
If you have a personality of logic, reason and getting things done on time, then your balancing act is learning how to dream, intuit and be in the unknown.
The generous person must find boundaries, or she will get taken advantage of.
The stingy will need to soften boundaries and give, or he will be lonely and angry.
While this isn't good news for many people who are happy just how they are, this is usually what the contraction is about. Your inner opposite needs some attention or there is no foundation to truly grow and you will find yourself back where you started. This doesn’t mean doing everything yourself, but it does mean strengthening the places you’ve been avoiding.
2. EMBRACE YOUR INNER CHILD:
Did you know that almost your entire brain is wired to prevent you from change? That’s right, evolution has created a failsafe to keep you from harm. Most often, this system was created by past traumatic events, or perhaps just programming that was functional growing up, but not suited for growth as an adult. You’ve got well hidden blind spots, and your inner child might be running the show in your subconscious. Time to find her and hold her because she may be very very scared of getting hurt again. All this expansion could be stressful for mini-you, and he may be sabotaging you only because he needs attention, rest, love and the security of your consistent comfort. Your feelings will lead the way to him or her.
Learning the difference between your healthy, capable adult, and your wounded, inner child will make a big difference in your ability to move forward.
The healthy adult knows its limits, boundaries and abilities. The child is unconsciously trying to get unmet emotional needs from childhood and not capable of making the right decisions for adult life.
Some signals that your wounded inner child is running the show: overwhelm, blame, loss of confidence, egoistic behavior, sabotage, making excuses, etc. Working with a skilled healer, counselor or coach is essential at this stage.
3. EMBRACE A BIGGER SUPPORT SYSTEM
You’ve grown, the game has changed. You definitely need more support. Often times, people don't realize that growing your support network is fundamental to expansion. But you absolutely will need more support than you think, professionally and personally. You must carefully consider where you will spend your time, and who is really up to the task of meeting you in this vulnerable, yet critical place.
Friends that want to keep you in the old place are not up to the task. Friends that cant be with your vulnerability are not up to the task. Friends that are ahead or on track with you, and can be compassionate yet hold your highest vision, are up to the task. You may convince yourself you cant do it over and over again. Having people believe in you at this point cannot be overstated.
I once asked my students how much support they needed. They said a private session once a week, some yoga, etc. Then I asked them to double it. So they added more sessions and yoga. Then I asked them to triple it. At that point, the support went exponential. They felt like there was nothing they couldn't do. They were no longer getting a few needs met per week but the world itself became supportive in all ways to their particular, soul based contribution. It was a real eye opener: a threshold is crossed into a whole new level of abundance when you feel completely supported.
4. EMBRACE YOUR BRAIN AS A MACHINE
Training your brain for your success is the final step during the contraction. This takes consistency. While it may feel impossible to do when you are down and out, or grieving an unexpected loss, it is the MOST important time to do it so your brain doesn't revert back to its original pattern. You can use mantra, affirmations, NLP, EFT, martial arts, whatever helps your brain stay on track while your deeper emotions are rising. Enlist your support team to remind you of this. Have consistent support set up so your brain knows it can count on this routine. Don't get attached to the emotions or stories as they rise, just let them flow through and then return to the reprogramming for the new story. Keep your vision clear.
In the face of unexpected trials after your victorious expansion, these 4 main steps will have you integrating and expanding again in no time so you don't have to sabotage your dreams. This time you will be more prepared. And the next time after that. Life is built to surprise you, and as you master one area of life, you are given new tasks. Rising to your next level involves trial and error, success and failure, knowing and not knowing, and the ability to be uncomfortable more often than not. Keep going, your vision is worth it.
After my first heartbreak when I was 21, I didn’t recover for almost 8 years. I knew something was up but I had no idea how to change things. I was frozen inside and I kept myself safe in a dating pattern where I knew I wouldn’t get too hurt, except that I chose people who would inevitably leave, or that I would inevitably leave. Each time, re-wounding myself. Does this sound familiar?
After we get hurt, whether from a breakup, or any shock/loss of some kind, we often will shut parts of ourselves down. We can shut down the vulnerable part, the strong parts, the sexual parts, the loving parts, the creative parts, etc. You get the idea.
It is here where we stay frozen, unable to accept what happened, then attracting the same pattern over and over again, trying to resolve it, trying to find and love our lost parts of ourselves. Again, this can happen after any kind of major shock/loss/betrayal.
This could manifest as:
I shut down my powerful spiritual side in relationship. Because I blamed these parts of myself for past hurts. Now, can you imagine someone as uber spiritual as me trying to minimize that part of me in relationship? That’s a kamikaze mission. A spirit this strong will rebel. And it is SHE who does every time I set that pattern up for myself, in hopes that maybe this time, I’ll stay for good.
Well, this last time, I decided to stay for good. When my ex told me, after a year, that he wasn’t so sure about this healing thing I was doing…..I had a wake up call. I was devastated at the realization that my full self could not be present in it, but I knew it was because I had been minimizing its importance, again.
The pain overwhelmed me. But I took that pain and I channeled it into my deepest, long held spiritual and creative dreams. I took all that intolerable but potent energy, cried all the way to New York and got a cabin in the woods in the creative, spiritual mecca of Woodstock, NY, where I had wanted to live for 20 years. Then I got to the business of fully incarnating into my badass multi-dimensional self. I finally let my Higher Selfie land inside my body for good. No apologies. No hiding. No holding back. No more compromising this essential part of me for love. I’ve been creating, painting, writing, wailing, singing, owning myself and putting myself out there like never before. Higher Selfie is home for good, she is clear on just about everything, and she is just getting started.
This is your most important point of transformation. When you are willing and able to feel those emotions fully in a healing container, they are the cry to all the lost parts of yourself! YOU come fully back in and with all that energy you have no choice but channel them into something creative, you are participating in the most powerful alchemical process that available. You are saying to the All That Is that you are READY. Ready to face life and all that it comes with, because your full self is brave and willing to be put to use, willing to accept the energy that spirit wants to give you. You are saying YES to your dreams you are saying YES to your mission, you are saying YES to your whole self.
The grieving process does not happen overnight of course. There are many check points where the pain feels so overwhelming that you just want to stop it all. And that is why it is EXTREMELY important that you get the love and support that you need, so that these sacred parts of yourself don't go into hiding and repeat the patterns, hardening your precious heart. You will be very, very tempted to do that, and being held in support will catch you and hold you in those moments.
This work is all the more crucial if your heart has hardened up and the patterns have set in. NOW is still the time to unwind them. It’s never too late.
I hope you will join us in this wild, wonderful, passionate, loving and restorative journey to Turn Your Broken Heart into Art. It’s my life’s work. It’s my most vulnerable, humble and hard earned creation that Higher Selfie, my spirit team and I want to share with you. If this course is over after you've clicked, shoot me an email to learn how to work with me privately.
I always have these romantic ideals about the fall. I love the wind, the changing of leaves, the excitement of the energy and my birthday, of course. But it can be spooky! As the veil drops, so does the illusion, and when the illusion drops, we are naked in our core. For each expansion we have with our divine selves, we must integrate into the physical, unlocking the hidden, darker places for integration.
Much of what we see and experience in our vision of manifestation has to go through an evolutionary process down the chakras into Earth. Where might you be lingering in illusion? Where do your dreams get stuck? Do you derive too much nourishment from your dreams and pay too little attention to the action needed to manifest them?
This is the time to dive deep into the shadow and allow its release to reveal the deeper unspoken needs. When you enter into this territory, time slows down, you are forced to feel and make necessary changes so you can once again remember your true self. This moves the stuck dreams out of the illusion, out of dreamtime and into realtime.
I have written an article to help you get clear on whether or not you are in illusion, and how to get out of it and get real!
Also, keep reading. A new teleclass, The Healing Chamber, is upon us for November. We also have a Creation Activation Tele-channeling coming up on Sacred Sexuality.
Wishing you unconditional love and clear vision during these days of the thin veil!
From the Deep Mystery,
Wow, have I neglected the blog for so long? My apologies! It looks like somehow in the midst of all the newsletters and courses, I did not keep up with the blog. I have updated the article section, so feel free to peruse to see what happened in Guatemala for the solstice, as well as the deep love affair I began with Money.
Anyway, here we are in May. This month I wrote about the ups and downs of being in the perpetual transition that is "the Shift."
As usual the year is flying by. We are almost at the end of the MoneyLuv course, the most transformational class to date. I realized throughout the class, as the students unearthed wounds and learned how to relate to money in a healthy way, that I had never experienced a time in my life where we talked about money in such a sacred manner. Money is always left outside of that conversation. In this class, we were able to include money in that sacred prayer. We were able to go deep into ourselves, and still stay connected to our abundance. We talked about the ups and downs of our passions, work and money without the veil of secrecy this culture is so used to, and with profound compassion. I found this experience itself to be so valuable, as a benevolent and loving wave of abundance began to flow through the students.
I encourage you to open up this conversation, to allow money to be in the spaces that are most sacred in your heart. In this way, together, we can shift its vibration and come into alignment as a culture. This, I believe is instrumental in our process as human beings at this time.
Blessed Beltane! There are lots of events coming up at Treadway Esoteric. Many of them in New York, and one via teleclass. It’s an exciting, creative time with shows, classes and meditations.
From the Deep Mystery,
It’s an exciting time here on Earth. For those of us who have been tirelessly growing and healing into our multidimensional selves, this solstice feels like our grand event. The process of stepping into our light bodies and embodying our higher selves is a gradual one, but rest assured on this date, when so many around the world gather in ceremony to celebrate the ending of one cycle and beginning of another, the potential for love, peace and harmony is exponential. Just the thought of so many hearts unified for the celebration of a better world is enough to change things, regardless of the epic astrological alignments and prophecies. When the human heart gathers in this way, the opportunity for light beings to respond to our call of love is magnified beyond our understanding. Just think about it….
This solstice, I am journeying to Guatemala once again to receive the energy activation at Tikal, Guatemala. I will be traveling with a band of healers, mystics, elders, devotees and artists. Five years ago I also was in Guatemala with Drunvalo Melchizedek and Don Alejandro Oxlaj, then Chief Elder of the Guatemala Maya. That trip was perhaps the most sacred of my life, and so I am very much looking forward to this one.
Every time I step on Guatemalan soil I am transported deep into my soul. Our group aim is to simply open to the energies in prayer. That we may be pure channels for what is coming through, that we may be the bridge between heaven and earth, and that these energies overlight and guide us through our work in New York and around the world. Many of us have foreseen legions of angels penetrating the veil, welcoming our world to the divine energies we have been working so hard to bring into our lives.
I’ve watched so many get torn to shreds this year. With the ‘evolve or perish’ energies of 2012, anyone who wanted to evolve did. Anyone who didn’t want to evolve did. Shadow pieces have been magnified and intensified so that transformation could happen quickly and with little mercy. There is a new human being birthing, this human being knows how to let go and ride with change as pure divine expression.
This last year, in the telecourses, we sat in “the energies” a lot. They became the foundational element of the curriculum, and I trust deeply in their benevolent power. I watched students birth dreams into life as these energies unlocked their subconscious soul desires and purpose. It was an extraordinary year of direct teaching from spirit, surrender into the unknown and simply watching as the work unfolded in front of us. I realized I was not at all in charge, and then it really got fun.
I am so excited about next year I can’t even stand it. To me, it is truly the year the New Human Being comes to life, and that will be the theme for the curriculum at Treadway Esoteric. We get to start really building, because we are at the beginning now, not the end. Yay!
I am honored to be on this adventure with all of you. Please join us in a course if you haven’t yet, or come on a Creation Activation call to get a taste. I also have FINALLY put together several downloadable e-educational products. These are a great way to being to experience what we do here.
I have also been revising the Channeling Certification Program. Stay tuned for more information on that!
Wishing you a beautiful solstice however you choose to celebrate.
From the Deep Mystery,
I sit here in New York City, a week after Hurricane Sandy, on election day, having gone through a mess of emotions. To let everyone know, I went through the storm without any loss of power, flooding or fire. I was incredibly lucky, but as you know, not everyone was. We are now settling into the long term damage the hurricane has created. Relief efforts have been phenomenal, both on the grass roots level and on the government level. I think Mayor Bloomberg has done a great job of dealing with the toughest situation NYC has faced yet, and New Yorkers don’t miss a beat when it comes to doing what needs to be done quickly and efficiently. Our city has been through a few major traumatic events in the last 15 years, and I can proudly say we have learned and are all working together. Still it is never enough when you are the one with a burned down or flooded house. Our efforts will need to continue well into the winter and beyond.
Last night as I was teaching Psychic Empowerment, I was listening to everyone talk about their experience. I realized that many people were having reactions to the hurricane, whether they were in the Northeast or not. Chances are, if you are sensitive and empathic, then you are feeling it and that is OK. I wanted to send out a note to all of you so that you know what to do for yourself in these situations.
What does existential terror look like in a natural disaster?
Natural disasters bring up your stuff
We all have habitual defenses that will be exaggerated during a natural disaster. So if you have a fear of abandonment, it will be multiplied. If your tendency is to disconnect from painful emotions, you may do that to the extreme and upset the people around you. If your life doesn’t have the support in it that you desire, it will be obvious during these times. Learn from that and become active in creating a life surrounded by loving care. We all need strong community and love in our lives, take the time to foster that. Gather together with your families and communities and discuss how you want to move forward, should this or anything like this happen again. Reach out to those who have gone through it, every phone call means a lot.
How can you help?
Meditation for Safety
For all those desiring to help, first and foremost, when you meditate please sink into the place of safety within yourselves and allow that vibration to travel to those in need. Ask that the vibration go to exactly where it needs to go, and let spirit handle it. As we grow together, connecting in this way is very powerful.
If you feel called, I highly recommend donating to Occupy Sandy NYC. The occupy movement has evolved into a community building and sustaining effort. They are on the ground without the red tape and in touch with local relief efforts. They have simply been amazing. People are not thinking about whether or not they should volunteer, we all know that's just what we need to do. Your money is being put to good use here.
From the Deep, Ever Evolving Mystery,
Aaaaaah. Fall is upon us. This is my favorite time of year, the most mystical time, and the most potent energetically. It is the time of year of the hearth. In today’s busy world, the hearth has all but been forgotten. I liken the hearth to the spiritual and physical epicenter of feminine wisdom and magic. It is the center of the home, the foundational balancing element where the family gathers to cook, eat, laugh, and tell stories, where nourishing potions are created and shared, and where the sacred eternal flame is kept burning. My hearth is usually bustling with ambitious New York lightworkers and artists and their grand plans to love and be loved in this crazy world. We eat, we pray, we snuggle, we dream, we create and we support each other. We are blessed at this time to sink into the harvest of what we have been working on all year.
Getting to focus primarily on teaching with all of you has become my life’s joy and service. The deep and receptive place the students went to this summer in Creation Lab was completely life altering. In the end, many students had several projects completed, some made products that are now brought to market, and all of us were taken deep into the natural creative pulse of life. It was amazing, and this course will definitely be offered again. Now, with a full Learning to Channel course, those who need the foundational skills of tuning in and connecting to guidance are revved up and ready to channel! When people tell me of how they are connecting, and the tears it brings to their eyes, there are no real words for the experience for me. It brings me the greatest happiness I know.
Working with the seasons and the incoming energies, a beautiful balance has occurred that has been many years in the making. As we enter Libra this fall, balance is on all our minds, and the deep inner calm exists within that balance.
The guidance I have been getting is to step out of drama, connect to the earth and sky, and to tap into the sacred in our hearts, bodies and souls to pray. This is not new news, but in these times of chaos, it is essential that we not get lost in the exterior. We can instead allow the wisdom of our deep selves and deep knowing to be our gauges, guiding our actions. By simply sitting on the earth and feeling into her, much peace can be had in our systems.
The ongoing split in the collective psyche between the right and left, masculine and feminine is ever strong. We can see that in politics so clearly. Splitting in half is a lie, and that’s how I feel when I listen to these political speeches. How can we know the truth of our humanity when we are convinced that only one side of us is correct?
Our commitment to balancing this internally is essential. Sometimes when we are in our masculine side, success looks like taking our careers to the next level, increasing income, rockin’ it out in some extreme way, climbing mountains, and every man for themselves. We want to make all of our decisions from this place and can end up exhausted.
When we are in our feminine, we long for a softer approach, the receptive, understanding how everyone is connected and needs care, but also feeling like what we have is more than enough. Conquering and climbing mountains seems unnecessary and yet, we can’t stay just on that side either.
The dance between these two parts of ourselves, and integrating them helps us to get clear on who we are and how we really need to live. For me, these 2 parts of my psyche get integrated through meditation, music and careful listening. Click here to read a channeling that goes deeper into this subject.
As we journey between worlds this fall, we have a huge opportunity to resolve inner conflict and create in harmony with life, together. We can sit in the in-between space and feel and know who we are and what is right for us. Ancestors, light beings and Mother Earth’s creatures are all there to dance with us.
I wish you an enriching fall… fall in love with yourselves a little bit more
From the Deep Mystery,
Well, we are in the middle of a hot summer. It’s kind of a killer here in New York and in many places. So, I sit in one of my favorite coffee shops in Brooklyn enjoying the strong AC.
It may be hot, but this summer has also been very creative, with many musical collaborations, a month long road trip adventure across the country, a reunion with some very old and dear friends and countless trips as far north as my car will take me!
In some ways, this summer is the summer of anticipation. We are waiting, waiting for something big. In fact, the entire global spiritual community is bracing itself for December 21st, when the stars align and the feminine is back in balance, when linear time dissolves, when we have 3 days of darkness, when we all become enlightened, when we enter the 5th dimension, etc. etc. You know, I believe in all of this and none of it. And I am also waiting…..
What should we do then? Should we start anything? Should we wait to be told what to do? Hold off on our projects and dreams?
We could be biting our fingernails, but the energies wont let us do that! No, instead we are growing at alarming rates, continually being challenged to let go of old belief systems- even if they are only a few days old – and invited to be walking human light beings, to find the song within and sing it!
I find I have like one day every 6 weeks or so where I literally have to spend the day wailing, letting go of everything that was holding me together because it stopped working all of the sudden. I wail for a few hours, and then life reorganizes itself and new opportunities arrive immediately. Then I scratch my head and say, “Alrighty then,” and move forward. My “day of wailing” might be like someone else’s medicine ceremony. Whatever works I say.
Summer is the perfect time to get creative projects going. I am gearing up for an amazing August teaching the Creation Lab course to help light the fire for your creative dreams, as well organizing and preparing a slew of events and performances in the fall with my wonderful community here in New York.
Please read below for a new article, a wonderful retreat given by two dear friends of mine and upcoming workshops and telecourses at Treadway Esoteric!
How was your solar eclipse experience? I noticed 24 hrs leading up to it if I felt I needed to communicate with someone, I would see them shortly...on the street or in the park. Remember I live in NYC, so this is pretty cool. For the evening, I tried to go to a Pleiadian sound bath meditation with my friends, but I arrived too late and there was no room! I was pretty disappointed because the intention of the evening was to celebrate and align with the fact that the Pleiades were in alignment with the center of the galaxy, a highly anticipated, much prophecized event.
So I started walking the streets of Brooklyn, trusting that I would be guided to just the right spot. I ended up at a pier overlooking the East River. What a beautiful sight! A spanish guitar player serenaded me while I watched the sunset with the polish fisherman. As I stood, I received download after download of mostly personal information, whoa. I was then instructed to lie down, and I fell into a peaceful sleep on a bench...not my usual routine, where I felt my guides doing their thing. It was so beautiful to be by the water while the wind blew, feeling the loving energies of these upgrades on such a monumental day. They say that we have been waiting 26,000 years for this alignment to occur. I know I have felt strong Pleiadian influence since my birthday last October, and I welcome more communion with our relatives!
I have just finished a new article entitled THE 3D OVERACHIEVER'S GUIDE TO 5D ASCENSION. It's pretty self explanatory....:)
My friends, our 5th dimensional bodies want in. It’s pure pleasure and abundance. Every day is an opportunity to let go and let in Source, dropping all previous agendas for life. The karmas we were born with are dissolving as the new quantum reality takes over. Love leads the way as we know that hurdles and change are opportunities for expansion. Keep going, keep aligning, and keep believing in yourself as Love embodied.
This winter’s teleclass, Divine Blueprint brought me deeper than I have ever experienced. While I had wanted to do a European class as well, as the American class progressed, I found that the energies were so strong that it would have been overkill.
Working on the pituitary, pineal and sexual glands, as well as the heart, the main focus was for each person to tap into their higher mission for the year and integrate it into the body. Now this mission may have come in words, a creative project, as a deep integration of a life lesson or an unexpected opportunity that changes you forever.
My objective was for everyone to completely and totally surrender into the divine, to drop personal agenda and become so clearly on board with the soul and higher self that inner conflict resolved naturally. A real do less get more kind of approach. The feedback from many members of the class was astounding, and the changes in my own life were monumental. These changes all happened on their own with no force as we aligned ourselves, day after day, with our true divine being and our true divine purpose.
As some of you may have noticed, I have been a little quiet. This is because I really have been a little quiet. Winter and the Divine Blueprint class brought on many changes to my being and I have been allowing them to integrate, taking extended periods of solitude and silence. I became a vegetarian overnight, belief systems I had been carrying for my whole life dissolved into the present moment, and after a musical/sound healing performance I found the course of my life on a different path. of course I wanted to give these changes some time, to see if they were for real.
The biggest change that I need to share with you is that I have closed my private practice. This decision became absolute the moment I got off stage. Working with everyone over all these years has been so sacred, taught me so much, and consistently led me deeper into life, into magic and into the heart. I am so grateful for each beautiful soul, and it’s time to nourish other areas of my life, especially my creativity. I have to admit, I feel a lot more human these days, it’s totally weird and amazing.
Treadway Esoteric is now an educational engine focusing on telecourses and workshops. The telecourses are following the seasons and working with the fluctuating energies of life as we go through these monumental shifts. There will still be long distance private sessions included with some of the telecourses. Anyone in a channeling certification program will also get to complete of course! To see the curriculum for the year, click here.
I would love to hear about people’s experiences with their own changes. What does the shift mean to you? What has changed in your life rapidly? Do you feel the presence of the Divine more easily?
From the Deep Mystery,
My obsession with all things spiritual, healing and artistic began as a child. I have so much to say, sing and create! Enjoy reading.
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