Wow, have I neglected the blog for so long? My apologies! It looks like somehow in the midst of all the newsletters and courses, I did not keep up with the blog. I have updated the article section, so feel free to peruse to see what happened in Guatemala for the solstice, as well as the deep love affair I began with Money.
Anyway, here we are in May. This month I wrote about the ups and downs of being in the perpetual transition that is "the Shift."
As usual the year is flying by. We are almost at the end of the MoneyLuv course, the most transformational class to date. I realized throughout the class, as the students unearthed wounds and learned how to relate to money in a healthy way, that I had never experienced a time in my life where we talked about money in such a sacred manner. Money is always left outside of that conversation. In this class, we were able to include money in that sacred prayer. We were able to go deep into ourselves, and still stay connected to our abundance. We talked about the ups and downs of our passions, work and money without the veil of secrecy this culture is so used to, and with profound compassion. I found this experience itself to be so valuable, as a benevolent and loving wave of abundance began to flow through the students.
I encourage you to open up this conversation, to allow money to be in the spaces that are most sacred in your heart. In this way, together, we can shift its vibration and come into alignment as a culture. This, I believe is instrumental in our process as human beings at this time.
Blessed Beltane! There are lots of events coming up at Treadway Esoteric. Many of them in New York, and one via teleclass. It’s an exciting, creative time with shows, classes and meditations.
From the Deep Mystery,
For most of us in the northern hemisphere, we have seen the leaves fall, the skies turn to grey and the temperatures drop. Last night I had a dream the world was covered in ice and snow. At first I panicked and tried to run from the descending ice, but then, as I looked ahead, I could see there was infinite space, we were all still here and we had come up with good solutions for the new landscape.
As winter has softly blown in, I have thought to myself, “Where should I go to avoid the cold and grey?” After much inner and outer discussion, the answer was clear: I wanted to go deeper into myself, deeper into all that had been created in this last year, and deeper into life. I decided to accept winter’s invitation.
When the outer world is less than optimal, our inner world gets activated. The mysteries come alive, our soul speaks, our higher selves lead, and the sparkle in every snowflake is ignited in our being.
This process can be tough. The powerful and creative energies of autumn have a hard time shifting gears, and yet this is exactly what is being asked of us.
A few weeks ago, I was channeling with one of my colleagues, Samantha Ibarguen. We wanted to know why so many spiritual people (including myself) have a hard time settling down, why there was that constant desire to explore, travel, and expand into bliss. Why was the answer always “out there somewhere?”
The guides replied, “When an expansion of energy is experienced, a deeper level of maturity is then asked of the individual. This maturity is accomplished by grounding the expanded energy into the lower chakras, and into the Earth. The first reaction for one who has recently expanded their energy in accomplishment, or in an addition to the family unit, or in any rite of passage, is a kind of energetic fight or flight, because it is a lot for the body to digest and metabolize so much energy. It takes patience, as it is a completely different frequency, requiring the fast moving spiritual person to slow down into their own body, and into their humanity.
“As the lower chakras are activated with the spiritual energies, a more profound and present human experience is created, the deeper human desires are activated, such as career building, sensuality, attendance to family, or the quiet company of nature, the roots of your being grow further into the Earth, and consequently the branches grow taller. (If you are particularly up in your 7th chakra, or have too much unhealed trauma in your lower chakra areas, this could be particularly difficult.)
“The spiritual person takes flight for a familiar experience as much as a new experience. The responsibilities of adulthood, of building, can be avoided with the constant call of ‘spirit.’ And yet the true adult welcomes such responsibilities as spiritual growth, and takes on the role of builder of culture and society, as parent, as mentor, as a necessary part of humanity. The panic associated with fight or flight transforms into purpose. Sometimes this further expansion into travel, change and exploration is appropriate, and sometimes the true rite of passage into the next level of your life will require the deepening.”
I thought about that. The expansive spiritual energies are so very alluring, and so very much a part of my every day. There is the illusion to chase it for success, for love, or for ourselves. There are still tons of new places we could go to be activated, or meet someone, or maybe that’s where we’re supposed to live…But I believe true success is built on a strong foundation, the foundation that comes with sinking into the base of your being.
My wish for 2012 is to let the spiritual merge with the physical to create a grounded and embodied approach to our human lives. In this way we can be present for our families, our planet, our work and our communities. We can travel to new places without losing the focus of our inner being, or the goodness we have created at Home. We can be in communion with our higher selves, God and guides as we cherish our earthly time.
Happy New Year my friends, may this most epic and hyped of years, 2012, be blessed and joyful for you.
From the Deep Mystery,
Is it October already? Almost one year ago, I was packing my bags to move from Sedona back to New York City. Well, actually, I didn’t think I was moving back, I thought I was just going to be in New York for a few months to get my bearings. As I look back on the year I am continually surprised at the series of events. How humbling to have worked so hard to create a certain kind of life, only to watch it disintegrate, virtually overnight, and then be taken on what felt like a magic carpet ride back to the life I had worked very hard to get away from.
I had to give up the reigns entirely and trust, because somehow when everything was falling apart, everything fell into place. It was like the universe said, “Since you have no idea what to do, let us set it all up for you. Come, this way, trust us, I think you’re gonna like it.”
To let you know of some of the synchronicities, I ended up in a beautiful house in a quiet neighborhood surrounded by trees in Brooklyn, the largest and nicest place I have ever lived in. My roommate when I arrived was tantra teacher Luba Evans, who has turned out to be one of my dearest friends and colleagues. Many hours and days were spent brainstorming, talking and sharing. We wrote our e-book, “Healing The Broken Heart” together. This magical house turned out to be a block away from the hub of the spiritual and artistic community I was welcomed into with the deepest soul recognition I have ever known. My work and creativity continues to thrive in collaboration with my new pals.
One of my best friends/colleagues and I joined forces and got office space in downtown Manhattan, in one of the most desired neighborhoods for well below market price. It happened easier than anything I have ever done. One phone call and exactly what we wanted was presented.
I was able to pay off my debts this year through sheer determination, working hard and surprise family gifts.
The release of grief I experienced over my relationship in Sedona ending, set off a series of awarenesses resulting in deep healing with my family of origin, a level of healing I never knew possible. 20 years of defenses melted away to reveal the Beloved inside of all of us. The sweetness of love welcomed a broken family back Home together. Just that would have been more than enough.
I can’t help but bow at the foot of God and accept everything that was offered. I look back and think to myself, wow, I did not see any of this coming. Really. This has only led to a deeper reverence for the mystery of life, to unknowable forces working with us to give us things we never knew we wanted. Or maybe, these unexpected things are what we really want, but we just have no reference point for them. It’s made me deeply respect this work, strong intentionality and the surrender to the soul path.
What we are all creating together now is out of the old paradigm, it creates itself if you do your emotional work and let the flow carry you. Things fall apart, they are going to keep falling apart, but as we tap into our true nature, our infinite light, all is available. If you are reading this, then you are somehow privileged to have access to this part of your soul. Use that information to get you through whatever it is you are going through, whether personal or in the larger picture of these global changes. Our souls were designed for this moment, don’t resist, just trust in how amazing you are.
We have some great programs coming up. Namely, the workshop in upstate New York at Galiana Retreat Center, Healing the Broken Heart, in November. I will be co-teaching with Luba Evans. This is part of the fall series that was kicked off with the Healing the Broken Heart Telecourse and e-book (we are still flushing out the shopping cart details on this one). I think this work is so important because I am living testament to the fact that we can deeply heal our hearts and let in the beauty of life. I know that the deep, empty pain inside can heal and be filled with love and hope. I hope you will consider joining us.
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From the Deep Mystery,
August is upon us, and I find myself coming into center, integrating all that has happened in the last several months. The energies have been just so amazing! I have gone through perhaps the deepest healing process of my life stepping into more freedom, love, power and awareness. I had never imagined that such deep healing and release could take place, but I stand corrected in the new energies of Love.
But now it is time to slow down the frequency a bit and allow the lower chakras to absorb and assimilate. Without the cooperation of these chakras, it would be hard to sink into anything. The physical body needs time to adjust to the expansion. Then Mother Earth receives the divine expansion slowly, with wisdom, with quietude. This integrative period is often the sweetest part, as Earth welcomes you home once again.
But who else has noticed that things don’t feel the same? Even grounding doesn’t feel the same. For those of who have aligned with the new energies, this transition is unnerving. There seems to be no certainty about the future, and the entire way that we have felt stable, grounded and like we belong has been dissolved. The new way is wonderful, but unfamiliar and I liken it to moving to a new town or country. It’s disorienting, and sometimes we long for the familiar feeling of home as we have known it. But we are growing into something bigger, and we have volunteered to do so. I spent several days pondering these uncomfortable feelings before receiving the upgrade into the new awareness. Please read this month’s channeling to get a better idea of what is going on.
Make sure you have people to talk about this with, because then you will know you are not alone. Any time I think I am the only one that feels like nothing is real, or nothing is anchoring me, I talk to someone, anyone, and they are usually feeling the same way. What we can do is support each other and hang in there, taking in the moments of joy and ecstasy fully, and trusting that we are exactly where we need to be.
Read this month's channeling, SHIFTING GROUND, here.
The flowers, green and sun have finally arrived and celebrations are abundant!
So there has been all of this talk of the unity wave and the shift and the new world, ok maybe I have also talked about it over and over. But I do believe it is here. Can you feel it? There is a wave of energy sweeping the globe that is new, palpable, creative, juicy, loving and unitive. It's creating something absolutely fantastic. For those of us that want it, it is right here.
This new world is filled with abundance, joy, unconditional love and acceptance. One thing leads to the next, planning is released as the group energy field decides which direction things are going with the collective intention. Individual dreams are held within the group energy field, supported and magnified. Things aren't all perfect, there are still interpersonal issues to resolve, but they are resolved in the group container. I have to say, that experiencing this first hand is pretty exciting. It's very confirming for me having channeled about it for the last five years and now to be living it. Not to mention all of the teachers who have been assuring us that this day would come. It's nice to know we weren't all just hallucinating.
To read more about the evidence that the shift is indeed here, please read my article called The Shift from I to We. It's a celebration of creative unity for our day.